so you might not want to read it if you can't stand that stuff (and, no, they're not all about the same guy).“I‘m Coming” (needs a better title!)
Falling down
Falling to the solid ground
Head over heels
Wishing I know how it feels
So bring me back
And show me everything that I lack
And maybe I, I’ll know
Every thing that I should show
Now I’m coming round
I’m coming to know
And I hear that perfect sound
I’m coming through the rain
And now the sun is shining down again
Walking on
Walking toward my only goal
Faster than
The cars that pass just inches from my hand
They’re going someplace
Where I’m headed, I don’t know
So show me
Where you think that I should go
Passing by
The people that refuse to catch my eye
Wondering why
They won’t talk to someone of my kind
I’m not disappointed
Holding on to what I wanted
I’m waiting for a sign
Will what I want ever be mine?
"I Already Am"
Don’t look down on me, baby
The class portrait doesn’t show the whole story
Hand in hand we face the day but you can’t even say
What you really want to know
I’d let you know in a heartbeat if you’d just let me
Go ahead and open your mouth and your eyes
And speak up, child
Because you won’t get anywhere zipped up
Though your cup runneth over
With intelligence
Put it to good use and make my day
You haven’t got a clue what you could say
Let me be there because I want to
Even if you don’t know, I already am.
"El Paso Doesn't Give"
As we parted ways, it was with mutual disregard
I wanted to get away, and you were all too willing
I won’t allow myself to look back in that direction
That parting speech of yours was sickeningly bone-chilling
It makes smiling all but impossible these days
I’ve completely gone off and lost all track of time
My face is deathly white, and I don’t know why I’m shivering
Because the path I walk takes me toward the sunshine
The tears that are rolling incessantly down my cheeks feel warm
They evaporate the instant they make contact with the sun-baked sidewalk
Either way, El Paso doesn’t really give a darn
“I Won’t Lie” (based on the song "I'd Lie" by Taylor Swift)
I talk to him every day
But he doesn’t see things my way
I say I don’t like that guy
But he thinks my denial’s a lie
I tell him what I say is true
I say, “I have never lied to you”
‘Cause I trust him with everything
But I don’t think he’d ever understand
That he holds my whole world in his hands
And that’s why this song I sing
And I could tell you
That he’s not just any boy
He’s my Adonis
All that I want is
Someone who can make me laugh
And who’ll never make me cry
And if you ask me if I love him
I won’t lie
They all say that he is dumb
But I see where he’s coming from
We’ve stayed up late and talked
He never fails to leave me in shock
He’s the light in my dark day
When I see him, I can’t look away
I’m cheering, and it’s just for him
And I could tell you
That he’s not just any boy
He’s my Adonis
All that I want is
Someone who can make me laugh
And who’ll never make me cry
And if you ask me if I love him
I won’t lie
"You and Her...and Me" (another one based on "I'd Lie")
I see red thro’ glistening eyes
As bottled-up emotions threaten to arise
To my frustration and surprise
I cannot take it any more…
You complain of being tired and sore
As you walk out that open door
I wish you’d stay around longer
I wonder what you think of her
Is she your sister and best friend?
Do you see her as I see him?
Or do you lie to hide the truth?
Well, I know you will never see
The way that everything ought to be
You’ll never think that way about me
"Poem for ( )"
We got it out into the open
No more secrets; nothing to hide
Admitted all our faults and everything
I finally told you that I lied
It was worthwhile; you finally see past my disguise
You’ve heard my story (please forgive me?)
And know you’re still my brother in my eyes
I never expected you to become my best friend
I’d never have predicted something so amazing
But here we are, it’s like we’ve been born again.
(self-deprecation)
I can’t believe
I’m such a failure, you see
Nothing comes out right
And everything’s wrong
It’s all my fault but
I want to blame you
I’m gonna blame you for what I say
I’ve messed it all up
I’ve made this a problem
When it was a blessing
I’m still thankful for you
I wish I could go back
And fix all my screw-ups
And make it all right, right to you
But time is not made to be turned back
Please forgive me for my knack
For making you hurt
It’s too bad you’re clueless
I wish you had got it
Time, and time again
I tried to say so
Over and over
I almost did, and I wish I had
"Don't Want to Be"
I was talking to my best friend
He said, “I didn’t know you then”
That was a time so long ago
And back then he didn’t even know
That two years from then
We’d be here together
And it’s a whole new life
It’s now or never
And I wonder, has he realized
(chorus)
I can’t live without him
Don’t want to be without him
Don’t want to wake up on my own
Don’t want to be the one girl
Who isn’t part of his world
I just don’t want to be alone
So I let the conversation go
And I tried not to let it show
And as he went on his way
I tried not to dismay
Over all the dumb things that we’d done
And the time it took for me to tell
That he might actually be the one
Who can save me from my hell
I can’t go another day if I don’t say
(chorus)
(bridge)
I was talking to my best friend
Got lost in thought again…
'Cause
(chorus)
If he’s not here I don’t know where I’ll turn
And I hope one day he will learn
That
(chorus)
"Best Friend (Never See the Rain Fall)"
I’ll take my chances
Pickin’ pennies off the sidewalk
If it means that I can
Spend another day with you
Because I know that I would rather
Never see the rain fall
If it means
Being away from you
I don’t know if I can make it
Through the fall, make it or break it
Without seeing your face in my life
I miss being at home
But the one thing I miss most
Is my best friend…
"Confessions of a Fairytale Dreamer"
In that letter that I never sent
I told you that I love you
That I don’t want to live my life without you
Want to throw my arms around your neck and hold you, kiss you,
Have you pick me up and twirl me ‘round
With the sun shinin’ down and my head in the clouds
I want my fairy-tale ending
Didn’t see the Prince Charming you’d become
But now I want you, love you, don’t know how to tell you
I love you and hate myself
Who I was hates the person I am now
Turned into a girly dreamer
Planning, thinkin’ of ways to make you mine
But I
Feel like I don’t belong here anymore
I wanna turn, and run from everything
Into your arms
It took a while
For me to see that
You might be
Perfect after all
It’s too late to fall, but…
“I Dream of Revolution”
A broken world seeks refuge from the storm
Hurting people cry for fulfillment
We strive for nothing more than just to feel
Like everything is finally all right
And so we try
But can’t succeed
And so we yearn
For more than this…
The time is ripe for change
I dream of revolution,
The night fading to day.
A newfound hope for nations,
A return to the old ways.
I dream of a revival,
Our hearts opened to love.
I dream of revolution…
"Tenses" (needs title)
Got sick of waiting yesterday
Picked up the phone
Waited for an answer
Listened for his voice
Grasped at possibilities
Looked for signs that weren’t there
Doubted my intuition
Hated myself for hating him
Converse and get nowhere fast
Speak and hear no answers
Hang up in lieu of what I want
Re-think my stance on waiting here
Kill my co-dependent habit
Paralyze the urge to take his hand
Pop snow-white pills
Tranquilize my pounding heart
Disappointing me again
Wanting more than what I got and what I have
Wishing for an easy answer
Breaking into piercing shards
Taking sleeping over feeling this
Rescuing myself for the night
Hoping dreams will slumber
Dreading the break of day
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